Received news of my grandfather's passing away only 5 hours after he actually did. My family wanted to keep it from me because I was in Vietnam for internship but my little cousin leaked the secret. Called home immediately but they didn't agree to let me fly back to Singapore for the funeral. I insisted and booked the earliest flight I could get.
It was a Christian funeral with pastors and singing etc cause my grandfather was baptised 2 years ago. I did a good job hiding my feelings during the wake and infront of my friends and relatives but tears rolled down like avalanche while we were at the crematorial hall.
Everything feels so unreal. I am still hoping I will get to see my grandfather the next time I go over to his house for dinner. Memories of him keep resurfacing these days and it constantly reminds me of how much he loved us but I didn't reciprocate. The older I grew, the lesser time I spent with him and the lesser I talked to him. I regret it so much now that I have lost him forever. 爷爷请您原谅我来不及跟你说我爱您。
When the clock hits 12 midnight tonight, it will be the 7th day of his death. I really hope to see him again. You know the Chinese belief that the dead will return to his home on the 7th day? I have wrote him a letter and will be camping at my grandparents' house tonight. Haha...
It was a Christian funeral with pastors and singing etc cause my grandfather was baptised 2 years ago. I did a good job hiding my feelings during the wake and infront of my friends and relatives but tears rolled down like avalanche while we were at the crematorial hall.
Everything feels so unreal. I am still hoping I will get to see my grandfather the next time I go over to his house for dinner. Memories of him keep resurfacing these days and it constantly reminds me of how much he loved us but I didn't reciprocate. The older I grew, the lesser time I spent with him and the lesser I talked to him. I regret it so much now that I have lost him forever. 爷爷请您原谅我来不及跟你说我爱您。
When the clock hits 12 midnight tonight, it will be the 7th day of his death. I really hope to see him again. You know the Chinese belief that the dead will return to his home on the 7th day? I have wrote him a letter and will be camping at my grandparents' house tonight. Haha...
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I feel it too!i cant believe i also have been neglecting him too!he cares alot about us actually, changes channel to the channel that we like when we are there even though he wants to watch that particular show.i will miss him n his delicious food that he cooks, stories that he tell us about him when he was young.Go XIAO LONG!
Aww man!
i m feeling guilty
ZINING.:'(
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