Attended a management meeting today where all the department heads and company directors were present. I was rather intimidated by the occasional awkward silence and tense atmosphere. I feel obliged, as an intern, to voice out my opinions but fear that I might say the wrong stuff and make a fool of myself. Better do my homework before attending the meeting again next Thursday. haha.


We head down to the staff lounge for a rock and roll karaoke session some evenings. Singing with Yan Ping is always an agony cause her voice is so powerful I have to stress my throat and literally shout into the microphone for myself to be heard. tiring one leh. haha.

Fruits I see in Vietnam so far are either extremelyyyy small or ultra BIG... I wonder why.

*green apples*

*longan*

*DRAGONFRUIT*

Today is my last day at the golf reception. Starting work at the events department next Tuesday so took some photos with my super fun and wonderful colleagues.

*Ms Trinh and I in the office. they always buy fruits and snacks to work and so I get to feast throughout the day.*

*my supervisor Ms Loi*

*Ms Thoan/Vivian; isn't she adorable? lol*

We get to order from the ala carte menu for dinner today and I got myself a club sandwich with fries. It was yummy and definitely something different cause it is my first Western meal in Vietnam. haha.

There was a blackout at our apartment today!!! What's worse? The tap water stopped running while I was halfway through my shower! Luckily Yan Ping and Shi Qin thought of using our drinking water to save the damsel in distress...

*our precious drinkable water*

*who would have thought that the basin Shi Qin uses to wash her undergarments could actually serve such an important purpose? haha!*

*Yan Ping, Ming Li, Wendy (from left to right)*

*Shi Qin*

The water came back on after a while but it was black. Like squid ink.

Received news of my grandfather's passing away only 5 hours after he actually did. My family wanted to keep it from me because I was in Vietnam for internship but my little cousin leaked the secret. Called home immediately but they didn't agree to let me fly back to Singapore for the funeral. I insisted and booked the earliest flight I could get.

It was a Christian funeral with pastors and singing etc cause my grandfather was baptised 2 years ago. I did a good job hiding my feelings during the wake and infront of my friends and relatives but tears rolled down like avalanche while we were at the crematorial hall.

Everything feels so unreal. I am still hoping I will get to see my grandfather the next time I go over to his house for dinner. Memories of him keep resurfacing these days and it constantly reminds me of how much he loved us but I didn't reciprocate. The older I grew, the lesser time I spent with him and the lesser I talked to him. I regret it so much now that I have lost him forever. 爷爷请您原谅我来不及跟你说我爱您。

When the clock hits 12 midnight tonight, it will be the 7th day of his death. I really hope to see him again. You know the Chinese belief that the dead will return to his home on the 7th day? I have wrote him a letter and will be camping at my grandparents' house tonight. Haha...

Leaving for Vietnam in less than 5 hours. Have been having mixed feelings about this trip ever since my grandfather's condition worsened. I spent the whole afternoon with him today at the hospital because I couldn't bear to leave; I know I will never be able to see him again the moment I step out of Ward 48. 爷爷，对不起我不能再陪你了。

Tears welled up when I saw my grandfather lying on the sofa today. He is so skinny now, unlike the robust and healthy man who could carry tons of groceries when I was a kid. The cancer has robbed him of his health. He can barely walk, hardly eats, stares into space while suffering in pain. It hurts me to see him like that but I don't know how to make him happy or lessen his pain.

He was always there to send me to school and fetch me after my class. He cooked for me, brought me out to play, watched "Tom & Jerry" even though he didn't like it because there was only one TV. He has aged and I never realised how much I have been neglecting him all these years. I am always occupied with school, work, friends and myself. Wake up girl, or you will regret it when he only lives in your memories.